God, the someone whom we returned to when we encounter obstacles in lives. Someone whom we cannot see but feel. Someone whom we praise. Someone who we got our freedom from. Someone we called Jesus. But am I really placing Him as first priority in my life?

Seek Ye first the kingdom of God

And His righteousness

And all these things shall be given unto you

Alleu, Alleluia

I was being described as someone who burnt really hotly for Him. For once, He became the most important part of my life. I proclaimed His power and I shone brightly for Him. I went around telling people how great, how wonderful and how privileged it is to know Him - to be someone called Christian. I thought that would continue forever and there would be no ending for that passion to burn for Christ. And yes, I thought.

Lord I will burn for you

Lord I will burn for you

That was what I thought. I do not know why - perhaps I know. Neither do the people around me - close friends or not. Something just happened. Perhaps it's temptations, which probably was. I fell. The burning passion was minimized and gradually put-out. And darkness started to conquer the light within me. I no longer shine for Christ. From a genuine Christian, I became one by name. I knew that I've crucified Him again. I know the truth but I am running away from it. Well, I can run away from people but I can never run away from God.

Crucified, laid behind a stone

You live to die

Rejected and alone

Like a rose, trampled on the ground...

I was drifted away. Drifting further... and further. Should this be an end for me? No, God won't allow that to happen. And it was proven that His love is always flowing and His grace is always being showered upon me. He protects me still. He still listened to my half-hearted prayers. He answered. He could choose to give up but He didn't. He left the door opened for me. He is constantly inviting me to enter and enjoy His everlasting goodness.

Though He may be sad to see the way we lived.

But He'll say "I forgive."

And because of that unconditional forgiveness, I was brought back. From nothing, He restored me back into something. Someone He treasured. Someone He will always love. And Yes! That's my Jesus, my God.

God - beyond description.

I'm captured by Your holy calling

Set me apart I know you're drawing me to Yourself

Lead me Lord I pray...

I shall never stray again. Thinking about the nails that pierced Hid hands. Thinking about the crown that torn His brow. I can never bear to leave Him again.

Once again I looked upon the cross where you died

I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside

Once again I love you

Once again I pour out my life.