Total Submission and Unreserved Surrender

It might be easy to tell others about us wanting to put our trust in God and to exercise our faith. However, when it comes to the point when we really have to do it, we tend to give excuses and not carry out what we said earlier on. The Almighty God created us so that we can have a relationship with Him so as to glorify Him. He did not create us to make us our own gods. He longs for a relationship with each of us and He wants to have the authority over our lives, without removing our freedom and full rights as His sons.

Khen Howe sat down with me to reflect on incidents that have occured and to discover what is God trying to show me through those incidents.

Firstly, He allowed my mum to discover about my faith and He spared me from persecution. This shows that He is in control. Secondly, I was told by Meng Choo that she can no longer support me due to her financial difficulty. My first thought was, 'God, you gave me something yet you take another thing away. Why so?' At that point of time, I really struggled in terms of funding for the mission trip next month.

Two days after that, I eventually sent out the support letters to four of my churchmates, knowing that I made an agreement with Khen Howe earlier on regarding the exercising of faith. I thought that things were fine until I received a call from Khen Howe that very night. He asked about my reasons for sending out the letters and He explained to me why shouldn't I do so.

Perhaps the withdrawal of Meng Choo's support was God's plan. He wants me to know that in all circumstances, I should always be still and know that He is God. He doesn't want me to be wise (human wisdom) and think that things are alright.

I think that what God desires out of me and out of eveyone is our Total Submission and Unreserved Surrender of our lives to Him.