Antichrist has taken the throne. Yet the lost ones are getting further away from God. They were ignorant and gullible. They simply listen to whatever the deceiver tells them. Are they heading the path to hell?

I have started to do something that would mark a historical point in my life. I have started to read. I don't usually read what is offered to me and whenever I borrowed something (books) from the library, I'd leave it aside till it's overdue before I returned them. I simply borrowed books for the sake of borrowing, without any real interests in them. And now, I'm currently on the second book of the Left Behind series by Tim LaHaye. The books tell about non-believers of God and those who rejected Him coming back to Him. As well as people getting further away from the truth, from the light, from the last chance of salvation. Last but not lest, about new believers and those who missed out the rapture, trying their best to guide people back to Christ, trying their best to warn people about the Antichrist, and trying their best to convince people about the Second Coming of the Lord as well as the Judgments.

These books have indeed caused me to have the sense of urgency to get back to God. His coming is really close that I, who has already known the truth, shouldn't be straying away. But I should join in the effort to save more people, to save more lost souls out there. But where? where should I start? Well, I know that amie would start saying this (No one can help you except yourself) again. Is she right? I am sorry to say, I don't buy it... at least not the whole thing.

I need people whom I can really share my heart with. I need people to know about my current situation and give me advice and opinions accordingly. I need prayers. Prayers from the fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. People may say that I am indecisive. But I just need to be sure. I need to be sure what God wants me to do and where He wants me to go. I've missed it once. Not a second time. And now, people are rebuking that I am taking this as an excuse to escape. Friends, if I really wish to escape from all these, I'd have done it long ago and I wouldn't be giving excuses. I can just remain silent.

Priorities, have I set them incorrectly? I do not wish to elaborate about this because it may lead to an arguement. And recently, I find myself not replying to messages due to the fear of arguements and disagreements.

There are more things inside my heart but I guess that should be shared between me and God.