This is My Desire to Honour You

If the Lord were to come today, what will happen to me? This is one of the questions that many Christians have neglected. Some possible causes are that they may think that all Christians are saved and they should go to heaven and there is nothing to worry about. They tend to take it for granted. Another reason is that they are too engaged in earthly activities that they have never allowed this question to cross their minds. Thirdly, they may be avoiding this question as they could not come out with an absolute response.

Whatever the reason, I think that every Christian should seriously consider this question. There are three processes of a Christian. They will be justified, sanctified and then glorified. A Christian is justified on that day he accepted Jesus Christ as his personal Lord and Saviour. This is because once a person received Christ, it means that he has repented and turned away from his old ways. Thus, he is no longer seen as a sinner but a repented being, therefore, justified. After being a Christian, he is not yet complete. He has to be sanctified. Which means he will let God take control and continue to mould him into the person He desires. This is done during our days on earth. Glorification takes place after we died and resurrected like Christ. He will judge us, glorify us before we inherit the eternal life with Him.

Therefore, I shall ask the question again. Have we really allow the Lord to sanctify us? Sometimes, a Christian that doesn't obey God's word is considered worse than a non-believer. We call them Christians-by-name or Sunday-Christians. They proclaim to be Christians but they do not behave like Christians. They curse with their tongues which are supposed to be used to praise God. In the bible, it says that a tongue cannot be used to curse and to praise God, just as fresh water and salt water don't flow from the same spring. Although some of them do attend their respective churches regularly, their motives are different. This is what it means by impurity in motive and worship.

If a Christian is unclean, how can the Lord use him any longer? It is really a pity to see some Christians around me who are not devoted to the Lord. They either curse or commit themselves in earthly activities with the non-believers. Furthermore, they also act as stumbling block and negative impact on the non-believers. They (the non-believers) may change their perspective of a Christian and this will make it harder for "true Christian" to reach out to them.

To make the matter worse, there is a saying quoted from a book, "If you want to find the devil, you can find him in church." How can a devil and a Christian compromise with each other? It may sound weird in certain sense but that is a truth. Furthermore, in the bible, Jesus urged the believers in faith to be committed to one another, love one another and spur one another on in faith, in deeds. However, nowadays you will see Christians going against christians (I will use a lowercase "c" to indicate 'fake' christians). While the Christians are trying their best to save lives, those christians destroy lives. They (christians) will even sometimes criticise and curse Christians. Is this the way that the Lord wants? I believe that whenever He sees this kind of situations, He would weep. Because this means that His death is in vain.

My fellow brothers and sisters in the name of Christ, I now urge and warn all of you, that if you belong to the christian category, do not love the world any longer. Our Lord Jesus Christ is calling out to you, my fellow brethrens and sisters. Awake from your sleep now and sincerely ask for forgiveness. The blood that shed at Calvary by our Lord will grant you the freedom that will set you free from sins. Stop being deceived by the world, resist from all the temptations and pray for wisdom. Jesus loves you, my brothers and sisters. Come back to Him before it becomes too late. The Lord is your only dwelling place that will last.

My fellow brothers and sisters who are doing the work of our Almighty Lord. I urge you to keep the command written in Hebrews in your hearts. "And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in habit of doing. But let us encourage one another and all the more as you see the day approaching." Continue your good work in the Lord and He will bless you. And in the midst of doing it, keep our other brothers and sisters who are lost, in mind. Pray for them that they may wake up from their sleep. Do as the scripture says. But do not take them as your enemies but warn them as fellow brothers in the name of Christ.

Dear Lord, I come to you with a weary heart. Teach us to be genuine Christians who live by your Word. Teach us to love, Lord, to convert hatred into love because You first loved us. May we walk according to Your will so that we may be justified, sanctified and lastly glorified. Father, I sincerely pray for the brothers and sisters who are lost. That dear Lord, You may forgive them because they have unknowingly fallen into temptations. My Lord, wake them up from their sleep for good and evil can never compromise with each other. May the Holy Spirit soften their hearts as the work of salvation works in them again. And I pray for those who are working hard for Your kingdom that Lord, You will bless us. Keep us committed and devoted to Your teaching, Your Word and Your commands. Keep us pure in faith, in truth, in motive, in belief, in relationship and in our character and worship. Let everyone of us be Christian that proclaim the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ. As we proclaim, let us also claim the nations that are lost. May Your name be greatly praised. In Jesus' name, Amen.

In the image of God,

we were made long ago.

With the purpose divine,

here His glory to show.

But we failed Him one day,

and like sheep went astray.

Thinking not of the cost,

we His likeness had lost.

Make Me Into a Pleasing Sacrifice

Purify my heart,

Let me be as gold and precious silver.

Purify my heart,

Let me be as gold, pure gold.

Refiner's fire,

My heart's one desire,

Is to be holy,

Set apart for You Lord.

I choose to be holy,

Set apart for You my Master,

Ready to do Your will.

Purify my heart,

Cleanse me from within,

And make me holy.

Purify my heart,

Cleanse me from my sin,

Deep within.

I would like to post three questions for you.

1) What is purity to you?

2) Do you think that you are pure before God?

3) If the Lord were to come today, what will happen to you?

These three questions shall be my thoughts for tomorrow. I will post my opinions here tomorrow.

To be like Jesus,

To be like Jesus.

All I ask, to be like Him.

Along life's pathway,

From earth to glory,

All I ask, to be like Him.

Faithful to the End

I attended the GoForth conference on the third night. The speaker for that night, Rev. Peter Maiden, had a different approach to the topic. He went straight to the main point, discussing the problems and solutions.

Universalism, this is a theory that has been accepted by people of all religions, including Christians. It is about the theory that every religion leads to the same God, same gate, same heaven. Christians who accept this believes that as long as a person has a religion, there is no apparent need for him to hear the Good News of the Gospel. They believe that all religions, no matter who you worship, as long as you have faith in your own religion, you need not be saved by the Christian faith. However, this is indeed a really wrong belief.

Jesus said in John 14:6 that "I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." Jesus did not say that He is a way but He clearly implied that He is THE WAY. Therefore, it is clear that there is no other way for us to be saved except through Jesus Christ our Lord. So should the theory of Universalism still stand? No! However, this theory has already dwelled in some churches and accepted by them.

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I went for Eccelsiastes Youth Force (EYF) at 10am yesterday. We did scripture memory on 1 Peter 2:11-12. "Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in this world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul. Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us." As Christians, we should be aliens of this world. We do not belong to this world because it will pass away and because we are the residents of the heaven which is eternal, we should all the more die to the worldly lives of this world.

Learnt a meaningful song. I've posted the lyrics in the previous post.

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It is Sunday today. I can feel that something was holding me from attending today's service. However, I know that it should be from the devil and all the more I should resist him. The service started at 2.20pm. During the worship, I could not really concentrate. I tried hard to follow the lyrics but my mouth just spoke a foreign language. I was irritated and frustrated by that. I felt dry and my intuition told me that I will not be able to catch today's service. I paused and bow down in prayer. I prayed for concentration that I may be able to stay focus and listen to what He has to say. He answered my prayer.

The Lord loves to listen to prayers. He loves to see us depend on Him.

The sermon was about Faith. If I were to share everything here, I don't think I would be able to finish it by tonight. Well, three statements and two questions had a great impact on me.

1) Truth does not originate from belief. Truth originates from God.

2) God's Word is no longer uphold in the world today.

3) Those who uphold the Truth and Word of God will be seen odd.

4) What is my response to them?

5) In ten to fifteen years' time, would I still call myself a Christian?

Dear Lord, thank You for Your message today. Thank You for saying 'My Child, I have a message for you! My Child, I want to talk to you! My Child, today will be a fruitful one for you!' Lord, being a Christian is not easy. There are times when we will be despised when upholding Your truth and Your Word. But Lord, I pray for strength for I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And Lord, keep my faith renew and my heart on Thee as I commit myself to serve You. And Lord, in ten years' time or perhaps twenty years' time, I would like to proclaim that 'Yes! I am a Christian!' And my Lord, I will be faithful to the end. Amen.

Strangers In This World

The day You saved me

Your love so gripped me

What mattered in the past

Become ties to be cut

Your Word made me see

My life couldn't be

The same as the world

When I follow Thee

I'm set apart

A stranger in this world

No more at home at peace

With the ways of this world

Your Spirit keeps me going in this race

Till I meet You in a better place

Until then I really need Your grace

The journey of faith

Your Spirit You gave

To show me Your way

Should I go astray

But often I do

Prone to sin, grieving You

Lord, please do hold my hand

With Your strength I shall stand

Towards heaven my home
My Lord, I'll behold

Where tears no more flow

Death no longer holds

So onward I go

Your glory's my goal

So help me O Lord

That my steps may be bold

When I fall, Lord you will pick me up

Lord, please keep me faithful to the end.

I Will Go Forth to Testify Your Name

I went to the GoForth National Missions Conference 2005 at Suntec Convention Centre this evening. This should be considered the first time I attended a Christian conference. The only thing I knew was that it is about Missions. Frankly speaking, I had never seen so much people gathering together in worship. The scene was really touching.

The speaker today was James Taylor III. He was born and raised in Taiwan, he was trained in a seminary in England. Today's conference was a bilingual one. However, the interesting part is that Mr. Taylor, a British, preached and shared in Mandarin while a local Chinese, translated them into English. Some parts were hilarious which made everyone laughed. There was a part when Mr. Taylor said, "My translator is very stressed because I will know it if he translates wrongly." And right after that, the translator didn't know how to translate that and he just replied in English instead of translating. There was another part when Taylor shared about John 14:6. He shared a lot in Chinese and he paused and looked at the translator, waiting for him to speak. Guess what? The translator only said three words. "I am the way." That made everyone burst into laughter again. There were many other more, but I don't think I should share them all as the purpose of the conference is not to entertain people but it serves a serious purpose.

He shared that in Hongkong, the annual suicide rate is 1200. This exclude those who didn't die after attempts to commit suicide. And report says that those dead did not have much financial difficulties and many had good jobs. This shows that not even money and materials can satisfy the desires and the dryness of man's heart. They need to know the Good News of the Gospel which will allow them to have a greater purpose in living. They need the Good News because they are heading a Christless eternity.

Furthermore, 80% of the places in Asia are restricted to missionaries. This shows that there are many many more out there who has yet heard Christ. The sad part is, these places restrict access for missionaries because the countries did not allow freedom of religion. Thus, Christians like us take on the role. Although we can't enter the countries as missionaries, we can enter those countries as Christians. Therefore, we should give ourselves to God and let Him use us for the Great Commission.

There are many other examples and points that Taylor highlighted. However, we only need to know one thing. That is WE ARE NEVER TOO USELESS TO BE GOD'S INSTRUMENTS TO PREACH THE GOOD NEWS OF THE GOSPEL. He doesn't require us to be well-educated or highly-respected. In fact, He uses those we are despised by others.

My Lord, I know that it's in Your plan that I am present at the GoForth Conference. I know that You have a message for me there. Lord, may You change my mindset. That no matter how tiny I may feel, I am of equal importance as the rest in Your sight. Remind me that You need me and You want me to be made into Your messenger, delivering the Good News of the Gospel to the lost. Dear Lord, You said, "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Lord, I will obey, I will abide by that Commission. And Lord, I would like to pray for the fellow Brothers and Sisters out there, committing their hearts in the expansion of Your kingdom. Lord, guide them and help them. May You meet all their needs because You are the only One who knows their needs. And Lord, may You accept each and every lives that are committed to You now and then and may You glorify them as they preach. As they preach, let them preach by the Spirit, with love, with wisdom, with passion and with a humble heart. As the late Hudson Taylor wrote, "If I have a thousand life, I would give them for Christ." Dear Lord, soften each and every heart of ours and make them into ones that will obey You and will contain the Passion for the greater of Your kingdom. Listen to my prayer, my Lord. As I asked in Thy Glorious name. Amen.

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GoForth National Mission Conference

Dates: 15-18 June 2005

Venue: Suntec City Convention Centre

Time: 7.30pm

Admission: Free

Outside the System of Creation

Was feeling colder than usual early this morning. The air conditioner was not on. I carried on with my sleep till the ringing of the alarm clock. I was a little late this morning due to the rain. We rushed to the classroom and were 3 minutes behind time. However, we were considered punctual. Collected my ez-link card at the SAA and made my registration payment for the Rotaract Club after that. Then I realised that there was still three more hours before the scheduled time with Khai Ying. I gave him a call at the station but he was busy then. Decided to make a trip to the library.

I browsed for two books from the shelf and went in to the Quiet Reading Room. Enriched myself with answers to some tough questions about Christianity, basically the theory of evolution and creation. Stayed there for about two hours before I saw Khai Ying waving at me. We had bubble tea at the bubble stall that I went yesterday. We discussed quite a few issues. I asked him to show me some passages regarding some witnessing issues.

Khai Ying took the opportunity to talk to me about my life. He shared Matthew 10:32-33 with me. He asked me whether I have acknowledged God before men. Sadly speaking, I have yet acknowledged Him before all men. I did not have the courage to make known to my parents that I am a Christian and I am attending church during the weekends.

He used the condensation of the cup to surround an ant. Then he asked me, "Do you think that the ant will be able to get out?"

"No."

"Why not?"

"Because there is water surrounding it and it dares not 'swim' through the water-wall."

"Do you think it will be able to get out later?" The ant did get itself out after he finished asking this question. He continued by saying that I am like a bird in a cage which door is opened. This statement did cause a great impact on me. As long as I do not fly out of the cage, God will not be able to make me His instrument to reach out to others.

Matthew 10:32-33

Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven.

There is going to be a consequence if I remain in the cage. If the Lord comes and I am still in the cage, it is apparent that I would be left behind. He also mentioned about the consequences of flying out of the cage. Being a Christian is never easy (not one ever said that it will be easy). Therefore, I have got to be prepared for sufferings.

1 Peter 4:12-17 says Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler. However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. For it is time for judgment to begin with the family of God; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God?

I find this passage a great comfort for me. It helped me better understand the purpose of suffering for the Lord. Therefore, I made another committment today - which is to courageously make known to my parents that I am a believer of God when the time comes.

Father, You have indeed made this day a fruitful one for me, thank You. Thank You for leading me back to the gathering of Your people once again. Thank You for Bro Khai Ying whom You have sent to deliver Your messages to me. Lord, may I stop being the bird which stayed in the opened cage, unwilling to fly out. But allow me to become an eagle which soars high above the sky proclaiming the fullness of Your grace. Mould me into the person You want me to be so that I too can be Your instrument in saving lives. Lord, I am going to make another committment unto You, that I will stand firm in times of suffering. I will acknowledge You before all creation. And Lord, I want to pray for wisdom and Your strength as I preach. May I not give up preaching and saving due to tiredness or disappointment but may I find comfort in You so that I may remain strong in the strength of the Lord. And may I not preach the Word through my mouth by myself but let me seek help from others. Lord, let this life be a living gospel so that I may preach through my life. And may the whole world comes to know You and accept You one day. Amen.

A Fun and Tiring Day

The lectures today were not demanding. I guess that everything is just a matter of perspective. It's all about the ways we look at life that determine it's good and bad. Perhaps I have acquired the skill to seek pleasure in all boring circumstances. School ended an hour before the scheduled time and that was something I have been hoping for because it can be really tiring to sit before the computer for long hours.

I alighted at Aljunied and went to church office to join the fellow siblings. They were preparing to have a Captain's Ball game at the back alley. Though I still felt a little sick, but it's about a week or two since I really sweat-it-out. It has been a long long time since the previous time I had so much fun. I scored the Golden Ball.

The sky didn't look good. Lightnings were striking and it started to drizzle. Walked in the "rain" to the bubble tea stall with Brendan, Wei Chuan and Jun Liang. I had a coffee blended. I would give it a 5-stars rating at that time because I was really drained at that moment. However, if I were to review it again, a 2-stars rating is already a compliment.

Went to the station with Wei Chuan. I intended to take a bus home due to the unexpected rain. However, God has shown mercy to me again. I was constantly telling them (BC, WC & JL) that it will not rain until I get home, by faith. Though I was merely saying without meaning it much, God didn't turn away from me. He stopped the rain. I walked home as usual. Not even a droplet of rain fell on me on my way home. Is this a coincidence, or is it that God is really protecting me? I'd buy the second one. He is Great at all times.

Tomorrow's Navigators' meeting has been cancelled as Alex (the i/c) has to attend a conference. I would say that this is a blessing in disguise. With the meeting cancelled, it means that I am able to schedule a meeting with Khai Ying tomorrow about some issues. I am really eager to meet him to hear his opinions. I never had such eagerness before. Yes, perhaps this is a sign of the spark of my heart starting to progress into a flame. Just hope that everything will be smooth and carried out as scheduled tomorrow. I am sure the Lord will help me, by faith.

"Daddy God, thank You for blessing this day, allowing everything to be conducted smoothly. Thank You for rekindling the fire of my heart, allowing me to burn for You again. Thank You for protecting me in every ways, assuring me that everything will be fine with You as my guide. Bless tomorrow too, Lord. Amen."

My heart is singing O Lord, listen, listen...

I want to know the One,

Who holds my hand in this race that I run.

My helper and friend,

Holy Spirit I love You till the end.

I want more of You O Lord,

More of You in my life Holy Spirit.

Living water flowing from within.

As I kneel myself to You,

Moving my life like never before.

More of You Holy Spirit.

More of You Holy Spirit.

More of You Holy Spirit.

More of You...

The Lord has answered my prayers again.

The weather didn't look pleasing. The sky turned to gray and signs of a coming rainstorm were obvious. Due to my cold, I knew that I couldn't afford to walk in the rain. I closed my eyes with a short prayer, that the Lord may halt the rain from falling till I reach the church building. And that I will be able to reach the church safely and smoothly. Soon, the clouds started to disperse and the sun started shining bright again. Great is Thy Faithfulness.

The service was about what Faith is. The Pastor started by posting us two questions.

1) What are the things that are significant in my life?

2) What on earth am I here for?

Those two questions may seem simple and shallow. However, it made us reflect on our daily lives. I felt guilty when I reflected on the first question. I asked myself "Which position does God occupy?" I dare not give a response to that. For I know that earthly desires have taken the top places.

What is significant then? It's the finding of God in one's life that is significant. Then what on earth am I here for? Why did God allow me to be what I am today? What is my destiny? These are questions that deserve some good thoughts.

I've indeed learnt more about the word Faith today.

Faith is NOT about trusting God to do something.

Faith is about Knowing God.

Faith is God's gift to us.

Faith is how I get to know God.

Faith is how I please God.

Faith is how I walk with God everyday.

The service ended at 4.17pm. I moved on to McDonald's to have lunch with some brothers. It was not long before the sky started to prank on me again. The wind was blowing stronger than it used to. The sky overcast. "Am I suppose to walk home or to hail a cab?" There was a reluctant in me. Brother Wei Qiang accompanied me to a provision shop to get my stuff. We went on together as we were on the same route. I felt droplets of rain falling down. I started to worry as I told him I do not want to get drenched. However, before parting, I told him, "It will not rain until I reach home." He replied with, "By Faith." as we parted. And by God's grace, thought the wind continued to blow strongly, it didn't rain till I reach home. Praise God for the second assurance.

"Dear Lord, it is You who has brought me back. It is You who said 'Come home with me.' Lord, please do not allow me to leave You again as I know that Your everlasting arms will hold me so close that I will never be able to be drifted away again. And Lord, that shows how much You care about a tiny creation such as I, that You are willing to love me like You did in the past. Lord, I know that You have a purpose in my life, which is having me to lead this life as a pleasing and holy sacrifice. And Lord, thank You so much for the constant assurance and providence. Thank You for providing me with my needs before I commit them unto You. Lord, thank You also for searching my life for my needs and meeting them with Your overflowing grace. Therefore, I want to present you my deepest gratitude by living a glorifying and pleasing life. And may I bless Your patience instead of testing it. So Lord, at the end of each day, I would be able to bring a smile to Your face. And may You strengthen the faith in me that I may stand firm in the presence of fears. That I will be able to resist every temptation that comes my way. That every creation will be able to see the Christ in me that they may also come to know You and to accept You. May I also have the undying faith to believe and trust in every command by You. And I pray to You Lord, that I will not be pull-down by suffering that comes by but I will stand stronger than ever. And may I count every suffering as a gain because I am suffering in the name of the Most High. Lastly, may You bless me as I witness to the world about how great and how wonderful is the Saviour's love. For Lord, my task is to sow the seed and the reaping is fully taken care by You. In Thy Glorious Name, Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam."

Time Will Prove It

Three more years, believe me.

I came into the gathering of the people of the Lord

And found my way among them to His throne

I needed to return unto the altar of my God

To renew again my covenant with Him

And there I built an altar to His name

And realised my life could never be the same

And then the fires of revival

Came sweeping through my soul

And I touched the holy presence of my God

Come build an altar unto the Lord

Return to worship and hear His word

And then the fires of revival

Will come sweeping through your soul

And we'll touch the holy presence of our God

I wanted to discover the first love we once had shared

Rekindling the fire deep within

I found the lamp still flickering

In the temple of my Lord

And poured a horn of oil onto the flame

"Lord I've strayed and drifted away. I've been missing Your past callings and was ignorant about Your unending love. I had been a lost sheep but now am found. It was You Lord, who constantly made the effort to search for me. Thanks to Your Amazing Grace that has led me into Your presence once again. Daddy God, I've indeed returned into Your arms and I will dwell in Your presence forever. Lord, allow Your fires of revival sweep through my soul and may it rekindle the lamp of my heart that is still flickering. Let the passion within me burn like it used to and may the fires burn away the sinful nature and sinful past of me and replace them with the peace and grace of the Lord."

The song above clearly describes my feeling. It's about a lost and repented child of God returning to the gathering of God's people and has returned to worship the Lord. He made a committment unto the Lord by building the altar of God in His heart. He did this so as to have an intimate relationship with the Lord. And by adding oil to the lamp that is still flickering shows that He is willing to burn hotly for the Lord once again.

As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: "Be holy,because I am holy."
1 Peter 1:14-16, New International Version

I received the above verse in my email. I believe that this is what the Lord wants to tell me. No matter what evil desires I had in the past and no matter what sins I've committed, I should no longer conform to them for I am now a new creation of life. I should lead a life pleasing to God and should no longer engage myself in earthly matters but I should set my vision upon the Lord up there, sharing His Good News and glorify Him in all things.

Anyways, my cough and flu are getting worse. I went to school but did not attend any lecture because I couldn't stay focus. I requested to leave and went to the doctor immediately. Praise the Lord for allowing smooth journey way as the train and bus came at such timing that I did not have to wait at all. The queue at the clinic was long. The 9th patient was in the consultation room while I got my 24th place in the queue. I had to wait for more than an hour. The doctor gave me 2 days of MC. Took my medicine and slept through the afternoon.

Pray for me.

The Lord does answer prayers... unexpectedly...

For today's service, I had difficulties getting my own bible along to the church. Therefore, I prayed to God that He will make a way for me to be able to have a bible with me. However, when the time arrived, I still couldn't get my chance to. I had to go for service without the most important thing in my bag. I met up with Khen Howe at the coffeeshop opposite the church. I told him about the bible issue and guess what? He brought an extra bible along with him. Praise God for that. That became a great assurance for me as I make an U-turn of my life back to God - His church.

I had a conversation with Khai Ying earlier on. A rather formal one. He has helped me pointed out the root of the problems that I am facing. Everything can be concluded with one sentence. "I have been listening to my fears instead of listening to God." I've let fears take control over my life. I've allowed fears to make decisions for me. I've been wanting to avoid troubles by escaping but that would in turns add more troubles. I've indeed learnt alot about myself - my weaknesses. I tend to get influenced by external people.

I've made two commitments today.

1) I am going to return to the gathering of God's people and I am willing to give my best. I will no longer possess the 5-mintues attitude towards God but I yearn to be a good follower and servant of Christ.

2) I am going to face up to the fears and never let them overcome me any longer. I am going to rule over it because as long as my faith still stands in the Lord, nothing will defeat me.

I am now an Emmasian and that identity will remain as long as I shall live. I am going to be a church regular and I will let my passion burns for Christ once again and may the flame never cease to burn like the past. Although it's like starting all over again but as long as I am willing, God is willing too. I believe that the unconditional grace of the Lord shall always be sufficient for me. That He will never say, "You no longer have the right to be called my son."

May the Lord guide me along as I begin a brand new journey with Him.

By the way, I am currently down with a flu and a bad throat. Please pray for me k?